I moved. :)
Been here about three weeks.
Besides missing my boyfriend and the few friends I have in Illinois I am a lot happier here.
I'm a vegetarian now, and switched to diet coke, and if you know anything about me that is huuge.

I plan to quit drinking the stuff entirely and will be straight edge as soon I stop smoking.
I've cut down to a pack lasting me a week rather then a day.
I left on some really good terms and some not so good terms and to be honest I really don't care how things ended.
They ended.
I don't have to deal with anyone I don't like or who has hurt me from there ever again unless I choose to.
It feels great.
My only regret is not seeing Beth or Chris before I left.
I know our paths will cross again one day.
But its still a win win, you win some and you lose some.
I'm okay with that.
 

I sometimes wonder how people sleep at night,
knowing how they lie every day.
I am not trying to seem better or lesser than anyone.
All people are equal which makes them want to excel above others.
At time I feel very hopeless knowing that being honest, being faithful and being a challenge will not save me.
I have a quiet demeanor and I do not talk to just anyone.
I have found time and time again that people lie.
No matter how much you love them or how much you care, they do it anyway.
Sometimes, to protect themselves or feel better about their lives.
Or even because they think what they are doing will really make them happy.
I have been selfish in the past knowing only my own hurt.
I can say I honestly do not understand pride.
Pride is something people fool themselves into thinking they own.
I have no pride, I have nothing.
And admitting it is half the battle, I think.
I felt as though something had been betrayed, and stolen from me,
I realize now I can never claim something I never truly had.
I mean this on very many levels.
It is very humbling to have your heart handed to you on a silver platter.
I am tired of it being mishandled.
So I am done.

What baby doesn't know won't hurt her.

Just give me a reason, some kind of sign
I'll need a miracle to help me this time
I heard what you said, and I feel the same
I know in my heart that I'll have to change

Even the stars look brighter tonight
Nothing's impossible
I still believe in love at first sight
Nothing's impossible

How did we get to be this far apart?
Lets take a chance, go back to the start
I want to be with you, something to share
I want to be here, I am not there

black tongues speak faster than the car can crash
you supply the rumours and i'll provide the wrath
romance is breaking every heart in two casting shadows
in the pale shade of blue
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